27 June 2010
What are you thinking in your mind now?
You told me that you ignore me because, I went out with that girl.. But I have no feelings for her at all.. But why ignore me because of this? Its it because you thought that, how I said I love you was all fake? Why cant you believe that my love for you is true?
I am not one of those guys like 'him' or those flirty, and undevoted love.. I am not one of those..
My motivation is still not up.. College semester is starting soon.. How am I going to lead that kind of mundane life?
I really need you back.. I want us to start afresh again.. Can you start by msging me everyday from today?
You asked me to trust you.. Till this day, I had already learnt to give my full trust to you.. I really really love you alot.. I want to take care of you.. Being by your side.. G.. Dont you feel anything for us? At all? Not even regreting?
Because I love you..
Reply my msgs from now on.. will you? And if you see this.. reply okay? and get well soon.. I am worried about you.. I cant sleep at all.. I dont know how you are.. Please reply me from now on.. Dont ignore me anymore..
These are our first month presents which you gave.. which I still sleep and cry on every night..
The white bear, reads, 'Love'..
The love we have.. and we last..
Can you give me the love again?
You still owe me, first month card, V'day's gift, birthday card & my birthday present.. When will you give them to me?
Posted by my memories at 5:41 PM
25 June 2010
Why ignore me?
I dont know why are you ignoring me.. I know there is something that made you stopped msging me.. What is it? I want to know even the truth hurts.. Can you please tell me yourself?Did you know how worried I was for you? I contacted her, to know if you were alright.. I thought something had happened to you.. Contacting Ch, was really my last option if you had not replied me on fb that night.. But, I told myself not to. Cause, I know you will hate me, if I did.. Arent we used to be closed before? Sharing all of our life? Why cant we do that again?
G.. No matter how hurtful the truth is.. I will not hate you.. Even if I do.. Please dont blame me.. The posibility that I might hate you is because I love you too much.. Please tell me the reason would you?
Posted by my memories at 11:33 PM
22 June 2010
title, how you feel..
I dont know why am I sad now.. I jus feel very very down..Well, its 11:23pm now.. and today, its excatly 2 mths since you left my world.. and in about less than 10days.. Its 1st July..
It could have been.. It could really have been..
Our 6th month together.. But why is it that you left me? I dont know why are my tears dripping down my cheeks now.. how you feel now when you're reading this? Can you feel wad am I feeling?
I really dont know wad to say more.. but, just, wanting to talk to you, and be the one who you will find when you are sad.. pouring your problems to me.. I just love you so much G.. hope you can somehow feel my love for you.. since 1st Jan..
please take good care of yourself.. because, I cant be there for you every second anymore.. I LOVE YOU
Posted by my memories at 11:30 PM
17 June 2010
why?
I dont know why am I still holding on to you.. I ask myself every night.. At times, cry myself to sleep.. Thinking, why did you leave me just so suddendly? Didnt you really love me at all? For that three months, what am I to you? Was I important? I know, even I was with you, you haden't forgotten him.. When I ask you to do things related to him, you will get angry or just simply brushed it off. Why you did this to me? I really cant forget how cold you was towards me that afternoon. And I just burst into tears because I cant take it. Dont you feel anything?
You told me, it tae you a long time to forget him, then, how about me? Have you forgotten me? Its not that we're not togerther before, and we're close before. A person who had always been there for you, till you sleeps and greets you every morning even I dont need to.
Please stop asking me to forget you.
You said you cant feel my care for you now, but, you didnt open up your heart for my care to go in. How can you feel it?
I know, you dont believe me that I am not with that girl. But, we're really just friends, I did not think of any girls at all when and even after we were together. Dont say I am too good for you, if I am, you wouldnt have left. And do you remember what you wrote to me in the letter? Hope you do..
Just to let you know, no matter what it takes, I will wait for you to come back.
Because I really really love you alot G..
Posted by my memories at 10:55 PM
11 June 2010
you suck
you suck?=D
Posted by my memories at 9:40 AM
10 June 2010
November 2009, Creativity Hall, Results- start to fall for you
Remember when I start to fell in love with you? Well, it was after our quarrel and the day when I collected my results.. Remember mii calling you a pig? and you say I looked funny with your cousin? :)All these came to my mind, and I just want to say,
"When I saw you I was afraid to meet you.
When I met you, I was afraid to kiss you.
When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you."
However, you had already walked out on me.. Yes, I admit I am not a good boyf.. but, my feelings or my love did not change for you at all.. Sometimes, I dont really know wad to do.. I had never dare to scold you.. :( I always try, to meet you whenever I can, taking the risk of being scolded..
You're all I think about.. I love you so much that, my tears are still a common thing in my eyes.. I agree that, I used to not trusting you that much, and get jealous easily.. but, I still love you no matter wad you did to me.. your broken promises. be cold to me.. throw your moods at me..
Nothing's gonna change my love for you.. Girl..
Labels: 010110, 22 Apr, Os, stress, wait
Posted by my memories at 2:30 AM
08 June 2010
我为何还在为你而哭？
你能听到我的哭声吗？还记得那天我忍无可忍，而在你眼前流了泪水？我睡不着，你又知道？或你会心疼吗？有时，我会问问我自己，为设么我还是放不下你。
我跟你说过的symptoms of depression. 你有去看吗？我让你在这里看吧。
Major depression significantly affects a person's family and personal relationships, work or school life, sleeping and eating habits, and general health. A person having a major depressive episode usually exhibits a very low mood, which pervades all aspects of life,
Depressed people may be preoccupied with, or ruminate over, thoughts and feelings of worthlessness, inappropriate guilt or regret, helplessness, hopelessness, and self-hatred.
Insomnia is common among the depressed. In the typical pattern, a person wakes very early and is unable to get back to sleep. Hypersomnia, or oversleeping, can also happen.
Appetite often decreases, with resulting weight loss, although increased appetite and weight gain occasionally occur.
The person may report multiple physical symptoms such as fatigue, headaches, or digestive problems; physical complaints
我真的恨我自己，为设么没有给你全部的自由。听你的每一句话，你说设么，我都ok。
一个男人听奴人的话，太丢脸了吧？可是，我先在愿意听你的，做你要我做的，只要你开心就好。
我好想念你，好想念我们开心的时光。你能不能在试一试多一次？：（
我说等你，等到六月，但是，到了今日，我还是爱着你。
I said, I will wait for you.. Be there for you, even when you dont need me.
*and pls dont return me back my things could you? You cant return me food items am I right? So does those which are not.. If you dislike all of them, jus discard them. Since you had already had no feelings for them.. You wont feel anything..
Just dont return me..
I Love You
Posted by my memories at 3:48 AM
07 June 2010
miserable days..
如今我还在原地，你却走回你的记忆。
你说我爱你太多，就快要把你淹没，
分開是一穜解脱，让你好好想過，
我想要的那片天空，你是不是能够给我？
你说我爱你太多，却不能给我设么。
爱情是一道伤口，我还在痛苦。
等着你，就是因为我真的爱的就是你。
你`能不能，在回到我身边？：（
D：
Posted by my memories at 3:05 PM
06 June 2010
How I wish we were still tog..
Its a sleepless night for me again..Do you remember, you correcting the way I hold your hands? And I took sometime to remember.. :) and my first kiss to you? You said, I look super super shy.. and dare not to kiss you..
=x
I remembered there is once we met at NTUC, and I gave you the top-up card.. you told me, when I gave it to you.. You actually wanted to give me a kiss.. =D ahh.. but you did not.. cause, you wanted me to take initiative.. :)
I missed how you gave me your kiss yourself.. and how I always take initiative first.. Your waist, how you sat on me, is something I still cant forget..
Its 6 June today.. And I'm still here waiting for you.. Loving you.. Being there for you, even when you dont need me..
我爱你！
Posted by my memories at 5:49 PM
04 June 2010
我爱的就是你！！
Remember you used to sing that for me? In your heart?I let you sleep in my arms, take you as my air to breathe.. and tell you I love you.. - Can you still hear my voice telling you those?
Posted by my memories at 10:41 AM
03 June 2010
Sleepless nights
I hadent been sleeping properly for so many weeks.. and its becoming worst.. i slept at 8 this morning, and woke up at 10.. i think i am going to have a breakdown soon.. :( you just seem to be glued in my mind..
Posted by my memories at 11:40 PM
I Love You.. 我还是很爱你
I am sorry if I hurt you somehow.. :( :(Listen to this song? Its wad i want to say.. I care for you too much, which let you feel so caged.. :( :(
Posted by my memories at 10:16 PM
02 June 2010
Stop lying..
If you did not do all those.. why ask everybody to be wary? and please stop lying! you got a guy now with you.. if not, you wouldnt just lost feel for mii.. and the way you ask mii to help really sucks alot.. your main aim to for me to help you.. wad other things i say.. you dont even give a damn.. oh well, then why should i really help you? you dont even appreciate.. you are not even sincere.. you cant even really prove all of your innocence.. I have to ask you multiple times before you say.. just admit if you did.. stop saving your face and reputation.. and your 'superior'attuide make you sucks even more.. you jus claim everybody cant or dont understand you, because its tooo complicated or you just underestimate ppl.. its amazing how fast your reply my msgs when you need my help.. and stop telling me or think that i will always help you, or i definately help you.. if you are not going to change your attuide, you are going to have all of your friends hating you.. for your 'so awesome' personality..Thats all..
Posted by my memories at 1:32 PM
01 June 2010
Key
You hold the only key to the answer, why you lost feelings for me..
