27 July 2010
September 2010
If I say something will happen to me in September.. Will you remember?key in your phone's calender? Or will you be worried? Or rather are you curious? Well.. nevermind.. you dont care about me anymore.. This might be my only post telling you about wad might happen to me that month.. Because, perhaps, I might not have the chance to post this again..Please remember me if you have the heart.. Remember who is Leonard Y.. The times you had with him.. Happy, sad.. He was the one who is there for you when you need him.. and never forget his devotion for you..
Posted by my memories at 11:12 PM
25 July 2010
TL
You asked me what's with my blog link.. I told you. but you seem to talk like a queen.. as if, everyone wants to link you up and talk to you.. who do you think you are? I put it there for you to ask me, so you wont think that i remove your link without any reason.. I gave you my reason.. I did things with reason.. How about you? Did you leave me with a reason? Well.. I guess not..And, you aked me whats TL.. yes.. It stands for too late.. and whats with too late? Figure out yourself.. and I dont understand whats with MC in your msg on fb.. I find it rather funny and not realistic.. dont tell me that he stalked every single one of his students? Well.. if he did.. then better becareful of him.. furthermore.. I didnt remove the link cause I want to forget you..
let me leave you with this quote, "What goes around, comes around.."
Posted by my memories at 5:00 PM
16 July 2010
Their story.. Our story..
He, is a person, who will go all out to sacrifice, commit, love and care about his girlfriend.. He wants his girlf to msg him all the while.. and meet him.. cus, he thinks that, his girlf had been spending too much time with her own friends, and didnt have much time with him.. He would rather decline all outting with his friends, and go out with her girlf..
She, is a person, with a heart.. and she thinks, friends are more important than her boyf.. she rather meet her friends than him.. she doesent likes to msg so much.. cus, she thinks, its tiring.. many a times.. she wanted to break up with him..
Well, it has been at least 8 months down the road.. Its not easy, learning each other's habits, attitutes, etc..
She said, everytime when she wants to break up with him.. she would think of, him, eating all alone.. cus, he had already been not eating or going out with his friends, or rather not much social friends since, he is with her..
She cried.. and cried..
And, another story..
This Him, he would sacrifice his sleep, and wake up early to msg her girlf while she's on the way to sch.. and sleep late, to accompany her as she studies late into the night.. He would also, decline all outting with his friends if there is an option to choose and go out with his girlf..
He will buy things for her, any when and then, when he sees something he thought which may make his girlf happy.. also, compromising his girlf's mood swings and always giving in.. Its a long distance relationship in this account.. furthermore, its also an low-profile relationship.. A relationship need lots of support and advise from friends and relatives(cousins)..
His only simple wish? Meet as long as it is possible, and msg whenever its possible.. Because, he thinks, communication is the key..
This She, she would rather meet her friends than her boyf.. cus she thinks, its the last year they would be together.. and should spend more time.. She was throwing all her moods all around at first.. but later.. Changed.. after her boyf's advise or a argument.. She turned to be, a much more understanding person, sacrifice to make her boyf happy..
There were many times, she wanted to break up.. because, she thinks, she is tired.. and she finds that she cant commit more than what her boyf can give..
Conclusion..
Both stories, the two guys love their girlf, more than they love themselves.. However, they never really realise, their girlf cant give them as much love, sacrifices as they do.
And the both girls, they cant really commit themselves that much into that relationship.. Although both of them wanted to break up many times.. they still tried to love, and sacrifice for their boy..
The first story is my friend's account.. Seeing her cry.. made me feel, how my girlf(ex) was feeling.. Because, she always cried, when there are arguments between us.. But crying for the relationship, means, she still loves him, and care about the relationship.. However they are still together..
The second, was mine.. Well, I dont know what to say.. I know that, she did really put alot into our realtionship, and she just cant simply control and stand it.. I am lost for words.. but, I only know something.. She never forgotten J.. She feels alot for him.. more than she could for me.. I was just a substitute.. she was deceving herself.. that she loves me..
There are so much things to prove why.. but I dont want to say it here.. Because,
I Love her too much..
Posted by my memories at 2:26 PM
11 July 2010
you are immune
you are immnue to wad i say now.. my posts of, telling you, I cant forget you, that, I am devoted.. that, I still love you.. takes no effect on you at all.. but, do you remember how we got together? how I confessed to you?I dont know why, this week, I just felt everything is repeating again.. I just felt that we are still together, waking up in the morning to wake you up, at night to wish you goodnight and asking you to cover.. I miss your hands locking around my arms, I miss the warmth of your head when you lie down on my chest.. I miss your breath.. I miss your legs resting on me.. I MISS YOU ALOT ALOT..
I have stopped msging you now.. thats wad you always wanted am I right? I think, we could really be strangers now..
why do you have to do this to me? wad did i deserve to have this? do you really hate me so much?
I just cant bring myself to hate you..
Did you really really love me at all? Even once? Did you?
How I wish you're by my side when I need someone to talk to.. how I wish, we were still happily together, spending everday, talking to each other..
- I'll be waiting.. November.. My promise..
- and I thank you for trying piglet again that night for your feelings to come back.. I appreciate that..
I am ready to change for you.. as long as you are willing to accept me again.. and starting afresh..
LY
Posted by my memories at 3:08 PM
04 July 2010
It's your life.. It's your choice..
Remember all these places?
The first one is where we got down the bus and walk.. where I finally remembered how to hold your hands after correcting me for so long..
The second one, is where we took the underpass to the grand place.. which you complained about your blister on your toe.. And I applied the cute tweety plaster which you never got to put for me, for you.. and risked myself getting HFMD, which i dont mind..
And the third one is the purple bus which we always saw, during those days.. A purple single deck bus..
Well, I am not sure when you will ignore me to.. but it's your life after all.. I cant decide for you, what to do..
Problems started for us almost weeks after we got together..
My friend had always told me you are not a good girlf, and encouraged me to breakup with you.. But I always believe, you will change.. And chances should be given..
You changed alot alot for me after 16th Febuary.. FOR THREE WEEKS.. we did not quarrel, we did not have any disagreements.. I can FEEL it.. and I was very very happy..
Although, now, we cant even be friends.. and things had to come to this point.. But..
All I can say was.. I NEVER REGRET BEING WITH YOU..
you changed my life.. you'll be forever in my heart.. and never forgotten..
